Wednesday, April 18, 2012


This is one of the many notes that I've found recently on the girls' bedroom floor. Maddie writes notes and puts them on her floor and says "Grammy will be able to read them."

Both she and Faith have been writing things down in their own journals. I am surprised with the things that even Faith writes on her own about missing Grammy. Abrielle blew us away the day of the funeral when we heard her downstairs start crying. I thought she was just frustrated that she couldn't carry her bin of Minnies upstairs, but I found her standing there sobbing. I asked her what was wrong when I hugged her, and she answered "I don't want to die." She doesn't understand the enormity of everything that's been going on, but she definitely understands something. Poor baby.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

This is Abrielle on our last day there visiting with Grammy. It was Tuesday, April 3rd and for some reason I had felt compelled to take my camera to take pictures of the pictures the girls had put up in her room.


What I would give to go back in time to before February. Or, even to hospice days. Just to be able to know that she's still here with us and not gone.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

April 5th

Dan's mom and my girls' beloved Grammy has gone to be with her dad and baby Mattie May in Heaven. She passed away peacefully this morning, and we are hoping PaPa was there waiting to welcome her.