To-do's and complete bliss

I'm starting to become quite anxious about our littlest lady coming soon. I feel as though it could be late(er) this time- as in past 38 weeks (Maddie and Faith)- but yet, I'm also starting to feel that it could be sooner than later. My feet and the bottom halves of my legs are so incredibly swollen since yesterday and I'm starting to feel subtle hints of pre-labor as I did during Faith's pregnancy in those last 2 weeks before she was induced. I'm feeling extremely anxious about getting things ready, as I feel that we have nothing ready. I have Donovan's old bedding in the crib, but have yet to move Faith over to her shared room with Maddie for her naptime. She's still napping in her crib in the afternoons. I feel as though I need to start this transition soon, rather than wait and have the new baby here with Faith going through extra unnecessary transitions on top of becoming a big sister for the first time. We also have yet to move the mattress up to the 1st level-- it seems so surreal that we'll be doing this again!

My main anxiety is in the form of my two big sisters. I think that they're going to transition wonderfully to big sister for the second time and big sister for the first time (it makes me feel a little better that Faith at least will be 7 months older than when Maddie became a big sister), but I'm also not naive enough to think there won't be times when it will be overwhelming for them. And, that overwhelms me. I'm constantly reminding myself that the C. and the B. are literally each other's best friend, and this third little girl will only add that much more to their soon-to-be trio. My anxieties turn into excitement when I think about that potential between three inseparable best friends and the bond that they will have for a lifetime, not to mention the feeling of having another daughter as OUR best friend. 

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I sat today at a stream with my Maddie and my Faith while we visited Dan's friend. The weather was absolutely beautiful today, and we noticed a really pretty little stream in their townhome development. They picked flowers for a good while and then they took off their socks and sneakers and we sat on the little bridge, the three of us, with our feet in the water. They pretended to fish with some sticks, but more than anything, we just sat and I soaked up our conversations and that moment with my little girls. We sat like this for over an hour, and it truly was pure bliss. I just love my little girls.